Grief gardening
Apr08

Grief gardening

I have to keep this post short, but I will explore this topic again soon. In recent years, I have had more than my fair share of grief. Losses and fears sometimes seemed to swallow me. At one point, I really just wanted the pain to stop. I was in a labyrinth of my brain and I could find no way to safety. After some intensive help and care, I start to make my most significant recovery from depression yet. One of my ways to be peaceful...

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Farming
Apr07

Farming

A few years ago, one of my best buds started experimenting with backyard farming. She took her small backyard and transformed it during less than one summer into this amazing farming landscape. It was both beautiful and edible! The produce she generated was not only enough for the family to eat, but also to have driveway markets every week. Her example – which she made look like no sweat – has been very inspiring to me....

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‘P’rojects and straw bales
Apr19

‘P’rojects and straw bales

I am someone who is always in the middle of a project: writing, gardening, work, painting, decorating, volunteer. Ok, I’m lying. I’m totally in the middle of all of those projects right now. I think, though, that the happiest projects I have are garden related. I have a vision of my yard and garden(s) that I just know I am going to make a reality someday. The last few years have been tough. If I wasn’t struggling...

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‘G’arden therapy
Apr08

‘G’arden therapy

Give me dirt over a couch any day. Put some black gold in my hands and my cares will melt away. Let me tug and hack at weeds and my anger works itself out. Give me some stinky mulch that will nourish food to feed my family and I’ll construct a story in my head about how the best things in life are built on piles of shit. The other day, I was planting lettuce with my daughter. It has been the first time in years I’ve been...

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Bird visitor
Feb09

Bird visitor

Hey … a tufted titmouse visited me this morning! I don’t know why, but I find that hysterical. I was sitting down to my computer and it had just started up. One of my online programs runs advertisements in a little corner of the window. I heard this chirpy sound and thought it was some ad trying to get my attention. I was annoyed – “Oh, so now they are putting annoying sounds to make me look!” Well, I...

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I’m baaaacccckkk!

I’m finally back. I’m so pooped! I pulled weeds all weekend, which was stupid, but I just wanted to be outside. I wanted to be DOING something and not sitting on my butt. So, I have muscle aches from weeding on top of lingering nerve tingles from the chemo. Also, I’m not sleeping well. I think it’s a side effect of something I’m taking. We’ll see how that all works out. But compared to how I felt...

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